And no, it’s not because I’m lazy, contrary to the belief some hold.
Although, I admit, there are days I feel like a complete failure because my TO DO List isn’t completely checked off. I end up feeling lazy because I didn’t accomplish everything I wanted to in one day. And I do realize that it’s nearly impossible for me to accomplish all that I want during my hours awake, but it doesn’t stop me from being so hard on myself.
It doesn’t stop me from criticizing myself and calling myself names.
And when I call myself names, my boyfriend gets mad at me because he is one of the rare few that I know who understand and appreciate how hard I actually work every day.
He’s the first to admit he had NO IDEA before we started dating how time consuming what I do is.
He didn’t realize how many HOURS it takes to do what I do.
He didn’t realize I could work 24/7 and still not get everything done because a blogger’s work is NEVER done. There’s always MORE we could do on or for our sites.
While others see me as wasting time on Facebook, those who do what I do, know that Social Networking is vital to a blogger’s success. Everything we post, all conversations we have, contribute to our site and our brand. That is WORK to us. That’s not a stupid time filler.
Although, when I do take a few minutes for myself to play a game, that is NOT work-related, and I admit it. During those times, I’m forcing myself to checkout and attempt to let my brain chill for a few. It doesn’t always work, but it’s something I have to do for my brain or I get overwhelmed. And when that happens, I get emotional.
Today, though, I actually feel good about what I’ve accomplished. There’ s no critical words bouncing around my head.
I don’t feel the need to down myself.
I am a happy with my accomplishments today and I love that feeling.
I can’t say that tomorrow will be the same, but I’m going to try my hardest to cut myself some slack from here on out. I know I need to in order to protect my mental health. Thinking negatively all the time doesn’t help me, the ones I love or this blog. Instead of focusing on the things I don’t get done each day, I need to focus on what I do finish and be proud of it.
And on those days when I have a hard time acknowledging what I’ve done, I know my boyfriend will be right there to point it out to me.
*Photo courtesy of jdurham at MorgueFile.